Sad

Today Gids lost his "horsee". The little plush horse has followed him everywhere and enjoyed many cuddles. 


Gids accidentally left it out in the backyard and I do believe a visiting neighborhood dog snatched Horsee and carried him off.


Funny how inanimate objects can begin to feel like they are people or beings after time. I kept thinking how sad Horsee must be not snuggling in bed with Gids tonight. Then I would think "well, that's a completely ridiculous thought."


I do believe I am more sad than Gids. Possibly because Gids didn't really cry, maybe tomorrow he will but not tonight. Instead he grabbed a stuffed monster I made, a squid to be precise, named the squid "Bubbly" and merrily hopped off to bed. I was sad. I wanted to say "how can you accept another animal so quickly! You haven't had any time to grieve!" I think I was also sad because Gids isn't a little baby anymore. Tonight is just another indicator that he is growing up. He can get over loosing his snugly toy. I don't want him to grow up just yet.

*sigh*


I need to find another Horsee so that Gid's growing up slows down just a little bit...for the time being anyway.